PSALMS 139:13-16 (NLT)

13 You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother’s womb.

My mother was 17 years old when she conceived me. It was November of her senior year of high school. She was rebelling toward her parents and got involved with a 20 year old young man. Although my conception was a result of an accident, God was making my inner parts and knitting me together in my mother’s womb.

Whether you were planned, a surprise, or the result of an accident, God made your delicate inner parts. He knit you together while you were in your mother’s womb.

14 Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your  workmanship is marvelous-how well I know it.

Lord, help me to believe and agree with this verse. Reveal to me the truth of your marvelous workmanship in me. I confess that I have believed the lies from my enemy, that my past negates your truth. I believe. Help my unbelief!

15  You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.

Regardless of the circumstances behind our conception, God was watching over us. He wasn’t hiding in shame, disappointment, anger, or rejection. He was watching, overseeing, ordering our forming.

16 You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.

I was not an accident to God. My life was recorded before birth. That life included God. He has never, nor will he ever, forsake me or reject me. His plans always lead to Him.


Do You Love Me More Than These?

I have been hearing this question in my mind and heart, for the past week. But the version I’ve been hearing has been, “Denetta, do you love me more than your fears?” Ouch! Lord, you know I love You. But how much?

In John 20 and 21 chapter we read about the disciples’ response to Jesus death and resurrection. Peter was ashamed because he had denied knowing Jesus after his arrest. Although Jesus had just appeared to them in the room they were hiding in, Peter was still confused and ashamed. I imagine.. Jesus found him hiding! Peter didn’t know where to go from there so he did what he was comfortable doing, fishing. Jesus went where Peter was.

Peter and six other disciples had been fishing all night without success. They had to be exhausted tossing out the nets and pulling them in and throwing them out again. ALL NIGHT! Jesus met their need of fish then fed them, before asking the most powerful question to Peter, that launched him to his destiny.

“Simon son of John, do you love me more than these?” Jesus used Peter’s birth name to address him here. Simon needed heaven’s revelation to become ‘Peter’. Jesus is asking me and you, “Do you love me more than your comfortable safe life?” If you do, if I do, Jesus wants me to feed his lambs. Feed his new believers. Encourage, support and pour into them.

Do I love Jesus more than my insecurities? Then take care of his sheep. Use my gifts and passions to build up my brothers and sisters.

Do I love Jesus more than fear of rejection? Then feed His sheep. Teach them God’s Word. Pray for his people. Serve the sheep.

Then I read Paul asking the church in Galatia (5:7-8) You were running the race so well. Who has held you back from following the truth?

8. It certainly isn’t God, for he is the one who called you to freedom.

Lord, I am ready to feed your lambs. I am willing to care for your sheep. I will feed your sheep. I offer these words for Your Glory!