I Thought I trusted God.

Psalms 28:7 (NLT) The Lord is my strength and shield, I trust him with all of my heart.

Have you ever experienced the Lord calling you out? Maybe you’ve made excuses for yourself in regards to bad habits, attitudes, or behaviors. “That’s just the way I am.” “People always….” “I can’t help it, my mother …” Or “I was …., so I …..” Am I the only one who have had these thoughts? Well, the Lord has called me out and challenged me to face what is true. I wasn’t trusting  God with my good, bad, and ugly.

If we believe Romans 8:28 (NLT) And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. Then we have to believe it for the good, bad, and ugly of our past.

When I make excuses for my behavior because of what did or did not happen in my past, I’m revealing my lack of trust in God and His promises. The people who were suppose to protect me didn’t therefore I can’t trust anyone else to protect me. People I got close to in the past, rejected me, therefore I can’t trust ANYONE. I’ve put myself out there before and no one was interested. Why bother trying it again? I hope I’m not alone in this.

I heard the Spirit of the Lord ask me, “Do you trust God? Do you believe that He’s a good Father?” A good Father doesn’t necessarily prevent hurts and pains. But he comforts and cares in the midst.

God gave me strength to endure what I have been through and not be destroyed. That is Him being a Good Father and God. As long as I’m willing to trust Him, He will continue to give me the strength to endure future pains and hurts and not be destroyed.

Jesus died so that we can have LIFE and have it in abundance. If I don’t want to make His death of no value, I must receive the gift of life. Give God my past and give Him permission to turn it to good. That means releasing my wounds. Allowing him to uncover them. Let Him put antibiotics on them. Press through the pain. Let Him put dressing over them and give them time to heal. Don’t pull the bandage off too soon because then the process has to start all over. I can’t say, “That’s just the way I am.”

2 Corinthians 5:17 (NLT) This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun.


My Father God,

I do trust You. I trust You with the pain in my past. I trust You with the abuse in my past. I trust You with the neglect in my past.

When my enemy tempts me, like he did Eve, to doubt Your love and care for me. Remind me of his schemes and plan. To kill, steal, and destroy me.

I will declare, “Get thee behind me Satan. It is written, God will cause ALL things to work together for my good.”

Lord, forgive me for not trusting You with my past. I do trust You. I trust Your love for me. I trust your care for me. I trust that You are good Father.


Do you need to trust God with your past? Past hurts? Past rejections? Past abuses? You can trust God.



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