I love how patient and loving God is toward us. We get a glimpse of it when we look at how He dealt with David after he slept with Bathsheba and murdered her husband Uriah. In 2 Sam 12 God waited for David to confess his sin and then He restored him.
I have experienced church hurt. I thought I had allowed God to heal me completely and was moving on. The Lord has revealed to me that although He has healed me, I have not moved into that healing.
I have been punishing people for things they have never done to me. I’ve been keeping myself at a distance. Telling myself that no one is interested in me. I’m not hurting anyone because no one cares. I have no difference to make, no value to add. I have been deceived by my enemy.
1 Cor 12:18 tells me that God has put each part just where he wants it. In Romans 12:6 we are told that God has given us different gifts for doing certain things well. For the body. God has given me gifts, abilities, passions, humor to bless others. I’m cheating the body by isolating myself and not sharing what God has given me. I’m punishing people for things they’ve never done.
Lord, forgive me for withholding Your love for others. Holy Spirit, when old thought patterns arise, quicken me and remind me of God’s word. Romans 12:10 Love each other with genuine affection, and take delight in honoring each other.