Do You Love Me More Than These?

I have been hearing this question in my mind and heart, for the past week. But the version I’ve been hearing has been, “Denetta, do you love me more than your fears?” Ouch! Lord, you know I love You. But how much?

In John 20 and 21 chapter we read about the disciples’ response to Jesus death and resurrection. Peter was ashamed because he had denied knowing Jesus after his arrest. Although Jesus had just appeared to them in the room they were hiding in, Peter was still confused and ashamed. I imagine.. Jesus found him hiding! Peter didn’t know where to go from there so he did what he was comfortable doing, fishing. Jesus went where Peter was.

Peter and six other disciples had been fishing all night without success. They had to be exhausted tossing out the nets and pulling them in and throwing them out again. ALL NIGHT! Jesus met their need of fish then fed them, before asking the most powerful question to Peter, that launched him to his destiny.

“Simon son of John, do you love me more than these?” Jesus used Peter’s birth name to address him here. Simon needed heaven’s revelation to become ‘Peter’. Jesus is asking me and you, “Do you love me more than your comfortable safe life?” If you do, if I do, Jesus wants me to feed his lambs. Feed his new believers. Encourage, support and pour into them.

Do I love Jesus more than my insecurities? Then take care of his sheep. Use my gifts and passions to build up my brothers and sisters.

Do I love Jesus more than fear of rejection? Then feed His sheep. Teach them God’s Word. Pray for his people. Serve the sheep.

Then I read Paul asking the church in Galatia (5:7-8) You were running the race so well. Who has held you back from following the truth?

8. It certainly isn’t God, for he is the one who called you to freedom.

Lord, I am ready to feed your lambs. I am willing to care for your sheep. I will feed your sheep. I offer these words for Your Glory!


This past Saturday the women  ministry of the church I’m a member of, had planned a day trip to the Washington Coast. It was a time for each lady to get away and have an opportunity to get to know ladies we wouldn’t have gotten to know after Sunday services.

In times past I would have passed on participating with a function like this. First off, because socializing is like work for me. I’m an introvert who prefers spending time at home reading, than meeting friends for fun. I would feel like I had to, “be on” the entire time. My mind would be stressing about being able to initiate conversation with people I didn’t know. Of course, that was the whole point. Second off, I always felt that my absence wouldn’t be noticed. I’m not a “bubbly” or “charismatic” person. I like to laugh but I’m not a “drawer of people.”

The Lord has a way of getting your attention, stirring your heart to want more, so when the time comes, you’re willing to test your faith and step out of the boat, as you come to Him. Earlier last week I came across an article written by Emily White titled, “Leave Your House, Change Your Life.” How to defeat the “Front Door Syndrome.” She wrote that Richard Sennert, a NYU sociologist, describes our retreat inward by the term “uncooperative”. He means that as we pull away from people in our social lives, we become more isolated and less responsive to others in our work environments and in our communities.

I have been praying asking the Lord to give me eyes to see others the way He sees them and a heart to love like He does. I realize that God answers my prayer as I put myself out there, around the others. Will I trust Him and get out of my boat of comfort?

I had a great time. I had an opportunity to share myself and words of encouragement with several of my sisters. The weather was beautiful. Partly cloudy, slight breeze, and warm. Quite often the Oregon and Washington coast is cloudy, windy, and chilly. It was like the Lord was smiling on us.

Although I got home late and I had an early start to Sunday, it was worth it. As I was getting ready I told the Lord, “I’m ok with being tired because it was worth it. Very memorable.”

Trust the Lord and, “Yes, come” Jesus said. (Matthew 14:29a)

My next post will be about my first Small Group leading next Tuesday. Like Jennie Allen says in her book, Anything, my life is not about me, but about what I will give to others.

Hello world!

Hello there,

I’ve decided to join the blogging world. Or should I say, the blogging community? It has probably been about 2 years that I’ve wrestled with this idea. Or I should say with the idea that I had something to say that anyone would be interested in reading. BUT THEN!!!

I’ve been reading @JennieAllen book titled Anything and I have been challenged. She says,

“My life is not my own, and I write to give away what I have been given.” I felt convicted for being stingy with what God has done in my life, so I must give it away. My plan is to use this space to share what God is speaking and doing in my life. My hope is that someone will be encouraged to learn that “I thought I was the only one who…..” Or moved to press harder toward the Lord.

Thank you for stopping by and I hope to see you again soon.